Looks

      Am I ugly?  How does one no if he or she is ugly?  After I got sick I felt like that a lot. I had gained ten lbs. in a lot of pain and just felt fat.  Even today I feel like that, not the fat part, but the ugly part for sure.  I started to
feel that way because of the pain and the weight gain, first the hair stop getting done (sitting all day was something I couldn't do), I started adding sweat pants and t-shirts to all of my outfits. I just felt blah all the time and changing that thought pattern is hard to do.  Truth be told it took me years to think I was anywhere near being attractive and months to tear that thought apart.  Its just been a long time since anyone (guy) has approached me for anything more then direction.  Maybe it is all in my head, I really hope so I miss that touch.

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