This is not a disease it's my life style: Giving up

This is not a disease it's my life style: Giving up: I want to give up some days so bad. Give up on what one might ask? The answer is I really don't know. At times on me and other times t...

Giving up

   I want to give up some days so bad.  Give up on what one might ask?  The answer is I really don't know.  At times on me and other times the world around me and the time that is left I can't really say.  I think I have let being sick mess me all up and turn me around.  The now is something I am still trying to fit into.  I miss the me from then, when my body did not have a lot to say.  I have lost myself in the red tape that comes with getting sick.  People ask as if I went out shopping for a sickness, compared some then brought the one best for me. Lol not really.  I will say I was not prepared at all in my life for this, not in the lest bit.  It is just that some days I got it and the other days who knows.