Today is April 22, 2011 and at times my days seem to run into one another.  There is not much going on in my life from day to day that is exciting.  I do know that today i am feeling good a bit tired tho almost sluggish.  I really want to do a whole bunch of stuff around the house and outside, but I know I should sit my ass down
somewhere. The days that I am not 100% I have a hard time keeping a smile on my face and have to fight back tears for most of the day.  As a parent it is even harder to smile when I have to tell my kids we cant go anywhere because I am not feeling well.  I can say that if I did not have faith in something I would really be crazy.  My health seems to depend my what I do from day to day and I think my mood, I know my level of stress has a grate deal to do with how I feel or to say it better how much pain I will be in very soon. 

   I use think of myself as wonder women now I have been rethinking my own self worth.  Now, that is a very hard thing to come to grips with.  I, me have not changed one bit, I am still me in every since, yet I feel different.  I cant explain it or even put my finger on it.  There are times when I have to remind myself that somethings I have to rethink how I am going to do something, when I don't I do pay for it later.  I have not known pain until I got sick, hell I did not even get sick a lot so this is all new to me.  So I went from being a healthy person to a healthy person with a small problem. lol

   Well i am going to end this for now until next time.