Wondering where time has gone when someone you know is close to death, is a bitch. I try not to wonder about anything, but I am only human. My thoughts get the best of me and the tears wont stop. My best friend passed away in November of last year and each day still is a struggle to accept her death. We had made so many planes for this summer ( silent laugh ). Everyday she is missed by many and for that she will live on. Death sucks no matter who is doing the dieing be it family, loved ones, friends, strangers and foes. It is a point of one return. lol Not funny really.
Now the worst part of being sick is the fatigue part that comes with "IT". Yes the pain, swollen joints, stiffness suck ass, but being tired for doing nothing really sucks. Some days when the other stuff is not bad the fatigue is more then enough. Just getting out of bad is tiring and having to walk for a distance does seems to cause pain. My whole body get heavy and it's hard to move, just a very strange feeling through out my body.
I have a four year old son who to say the least is a hand full. He is not at all bad just smart with a quick wit. He says the funnest things I have ever heard from a child, and I have heard a lot. The other day the kids are siting down watching TV and a Victoria's Secret ad comes on and he says " Hello ladies" with a oh lala voice. At four, then he shows me his age by laughing at his farts. Oh that's not right mostly all man (18 +) laugh at that, hell my oldest son at 12 does that. Somethings never change.
For now I am saying see you later
TTFN
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