single-parent-now -then

   Now I don't know which one is harder being a parent now days or being single.  I know I would not have wanted to be both a hundred years ago.  I wonder if parenting was easier?  How about dating? How bad could it be to have a man or young man come to your house and ask if he could court you or your daughter, better yet have someone ask for your hand in marriage to the elder male in your life. Now most parents don't get to know their own child let a loan the person they are spending a lot of time with.  As a parent I fear a lot of things predators on and off line, fast girls, bad boys, drugs, alcohol, fast food, fast cars, fucked up schools system and a list that goes on and on. As a single person wow that list is even longer.  I feel as if people have forgotten how to be human.  We don't take our time to get to know ourselves, each other, have compassion for one another, lend a helping hand.  We are all  in a hurry to get nowhere.  I would love to find a guy that cared enough about getting to know me as he did about getting into my pants.  I would find it refreshing for a guy to ask if he could court me and understand what is meant. I am not saying to turn back the hands of times, but maybe bring back some old fashion values.  Show our children what made us grate so that they can become better.
  Just my thought take or leave it      

SEX

   Well how many of us love this? OK backspace not everyone but a lot of people love it: well let me speak for myself.  I love it and if I could shout it from the mountain top I would.  People get their panties all in a bunch every time that word SEX,SEX,SEX,SEX,SEX,SEX,SEX is said.  My head did not just blow up or anything crazy.  Sex is such a beautiful thing to be shared by two people. Man sex is NICE :).  Now when I got sick I stopped having sex because I was afraid that my body would stop working in the middle of the whole thing.  This has been going on for a min now and this shit sucks.  Now that body is not on total brake down all day I've become afraid.  Of what I am not sure. ( Hell maybe I'll find an answer as I spill my stuff for all to see) Now I want more then sex,  a friend someone to tell my day to,someone I can call just to hear his voice, to be a rock and have a rock to lean on the list is on going.  I know am afraid of someone seeing me sick, seeing me helpless. He would have to be a  real man a grown-up in order to deal and want to keep dealing.  I said to my BFF awhile ago " Why would any one want me, I am sick."  OK I find myself very sexy and beautiful, in case anyone thought.  I use to be or tried to be SUPERWOMAN in ALL that i did.  Now I am just a woman.  I am working my life back one piece at a time and I can't wait till I get to the sex part.

---It summer go out and meet someone new---