SEX

   Well how many of us love this? OK backspace not everyone but a lot of people love it: well let me speak for myself.  I love it and if I could shout it from the mountain top I would.  People get their panties all in a bunch every time that word SEX,SEX,SEX,SEX,SEX,SEX,SEX is said.  My head did not just blow up or anything crazy.  Sex is such a beautiful thing to be shared by two people. Man sex is NICE :).  Now when I got sick I stopped having sex because I was afraid that my body would stop working in the middle of the whole thing.  This has been going on for a min now and this shit sucks.  Now that body is not on total brake down all day I've become afraid.  Of what I am not sure. ( Hell maybe I'll find an answer as I spill my stuff for all to see) Now I want more then sex,  a friend someone to tell my day to,someone I can call just to hear his voice, to be a rock and have a rock to lean on the list is on going.  I know am afraid of someone seeing me sick, seeing me helpless. He would have to be a  real man a grown-up in order to deal and want to keep dealing.  I said to my BFF awhile ago " Why would any one want me, I am sick."  OK I find myself very sexy and beautiful, in case anyone thought.  I use to be or tried to be SUPERWOMAN in ALL that i did.  Now I am just a woman.  I am working my life back one piece at a time and I can't wait till I get to the sex part.

---It summer go out and meet someone new---