I was just sitting around thinking of everything and nothing at all and at some point this is what I started to think of. What's Bullshit...... being in pain, the price of milk, the price of gas, family moving away, getting sick at 37, kids when they don't listen, people who pick on the president, hiding from the sun, swollen feet and hands, Weiner and his weeny, people not allowed to marry who they choose, being alone, that purple dinosaur, absent fathers (mine include), tingling/numbness in my right arm, people who can't say excuse me, losing loved ones, the price of an education, insurance companies not willing to pay for needed medication, people who don't appreciate a true friend, taking 12 pills puls a day, mean people, having nausea feeling just about all day, having to mop the floor, feeling lost, wanting something but not knowing what, not feeling the warmth from the sun, gaining weight every time I look at a piece of cake, missing how I use to move and at times just missing me.
I was having one of those days when my body was hurting, my mind was hurting and racing. I wanted to crawl into a hole and just stay there. The only thing that keeps me from finding that hole is the fact that I am a mother of 3 and they need me. Hell I need them just as well. When I first got sick I was bent with fear on what would happen to my kids. At times just as everyone does I cry and cry. I know I will get through this with flying colors no doubt, but it is just....................
peace for now
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